Hi all! My name is Alicia Lightbourne and I’m a senior sprint freestyler and breaststroker on HWSD. Below is a short excerpt from my senior speech, and then some:
It was one of those mornings where you seem to run on automatic without really thinking; put on clothes, grab phone, pocket keys, walk out front door. As I quietly eased the door shut behind me at six in the morning, an unsure “Hello?” echoed up the central dorm staircase. Not used to anyone that’s not used to smelling like chlorine being up at this hour, I spun around only to find my floor empty and every door closed. I walked down the stairs only to be intercepted by the third floor proctor, “Didn’t I just see you come back two hours ago from the library?” Still perplexed as to why he was awake so early, I remained mute. He continued, “No, I’m serious. Did you literally just get back and now you’re on your way to practice? Man, your schedule scares me.” I started to edge away, a signal that this one-sided conversation was over. With a shake of his head as he turned to open his door, he muttered “I don’t know how you girls do it.”
Though the all-nighters and midnight treks to the library are now largely a thing of the past, the awe in this sentence has always stuck with me. I had always known that what we do seems near impossible to those who aren’t used to our lifestyle. In high school, we, as any other Harvard student-athlete, were used to doing it all and doing it well. We had priorities and we stuck to them. But life post-high school has proven a lot more difficult. I had always been not just capable, but invincible, yet the addition of rigorous academics was a serious blow to what used to be my unwavering love for the sport. But something even more beautiful and inspiring arose.
I had become so obsessed with asking myself why; why do I put myself through all that I do – the 6am wake-ups, the Vo2 max sets, the unbelievable pain that comes with a change in the GH (or growth hormone) phase, and of course the no-I-can’t-because-I-have-practice’s- that I had stopped remembering HOW I did it. And the answer is, with each and every girl on HWSD. The endless hours in a dining hall, the excitement over new frozen yogurt flavors, The Zoo, the dancing on deck, the training trips, la nueve cuatro, the diver’s Halloween practice, the what-should-we-call-me’s, the look in your teammate’s eyes when you know that she’s got this, the feeling of anchoring a winning relay, of being Ivy League Champs 2x, and of finally being Ivy League Dual Meet Champs. Every time I thought I couldn’t, or questioned my motivation, I was given 36 reasons why I could. So the next time someone tells me, “I don’t know how you do it”, the only response I can think of is “I don’t know how you don’t.”
As my countdown to graduation gets dangerously low, it’s easy to get lost in the untimely end of it all. This past Wednesday marked the last day of official class, which means the last day of undergraduate class ever for the 10 of ’12, the steadfast senior class that has stuck together through it all. As the semester winds down, it seems as if not one day can pass by without a reminder of our “lasts” – the last problem set, the last house formal, and ultimately, the last practice at Blodgett. However, I can confidently say that instead of just looking back on this time at Harvard with sorrow that it is all over, the class of ’12 can also look back with pride at what we helped to create. #shots fired











